thankful: eight

today started off as a super-sucky day. see (and i'm going to try and not go into too much detail here), one of the reasons i came home from Liberia is because i had to attend to some personal issues that have been ongoing for several years. i felt like God was telling me it was time to face them so that i could truly be free, once and for all. so as soon as i got home, i started taking necessary steps to start the process--but today, it all came falling down around me. i was informed that there literally is nothing else that i can do (aside from praying and waiting for a miracle, that is). my heart sank when i got the news. that suffocating feeling of being trapped and in bondage crept right back in. disappointed and discouraged, i tried to pray. 'what happened to my freedom, Lord? i thought this was the season for it; am i doomed to be stuck forever?'

a little while later, i was sitting in a restaurant, waiting to meet my friend for lunch, and a scripture just popped into my head out of nowhere: In my anguish, I cried to the Lord, and he answered by setting me free. (Psalm 118.5) that was all the confirmation i needed. suddenly, i knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that He has heard my cries, and that He absolutely will set me free. i may not see how it will all come together right now, but that just means it will be an even bigger miracle that gives Him even more glory.

so today, i am thankful for the promises of a God who is so much greater than i give Him credit for. thank you, Lord, that you speak exactly what my heart and spirit need to hear. and thank you for your faithfulness. you are not a man that you should lie, and what you say and do no one can reverse. thank you that i am safe in your hands and in your promises.