thankful: thirty-five and thirty-six

yesterday was NOT a good day for me. i was tired. sad. worried. confused. i tried to pray but only ended up sobbing. i tried to read my Bible but ended up throwing it down in frustration (ummm, yeah. sorry about that one, God). yet this one thing i can say for certain: even in the midst of my temper tantrums and mini-meltdowns, i knew that God was there. i didn't feel Him, didn't hear Him; He didn't wipe away all my tears or whisper to me that it was all going to be okay. He let me throw my little fit. He let me cry, let me curse; He simply allowed me to be in that state. and then--it was over. and when i woke up this morning, i realized that days like yesterday are bound to happen. there's no getting away from them. but one thing God is showing me is this: no matter how tough and terrifying the storm, it always comes to an end eventually. it doesn't go on forever. and He's with me through it all.

so for all of that, i am thankful.